A good burn.
Jun. 22nd, 2011 09:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
museworksI did stay out in the sun, uncovered, until I burned. I'm sore now, and even with this cooling salve on it I have to be careful about putting my helm on, but I don't mind. I like the sun; it's why I stay in Durotar, even if I do miss the comparative luxury of Silvermoon. The sun in Quel'thalas, even now, seems almost filtered-- bright, but not intense. Pleasant. In Durotar it is intense, unforgiving. The sort of sunlight that forces one to go indoors because sometimes mere shade just isn't enough. I close my eyes, remember that first week of marriage-- and assorted blocks of time afterward-- and spread my arms as if I could embrace the light.
Haven't seen Eoghann in a while. I wouldn't say I miss him, exactly, but at least with him I know someone I can trust in a strange way. He is himself. He's useful, and in combat I do actually trust him at my back. I don't miss that damned scorpid of his, and I don't understand why he likes those things so much, but maybe I should track him down sometime. He's been keeping himself absent as much as I have, and I feel slightly bad for it in regard to the guild. I'm still not sure what to make of Merciless; it's unsettling because there are elements I hadn't really wanted to interact with beyond "Hey, kill ____". Twilight dragons and talk of old gods here and there and such. Things that make my skin prickle. But there's a strange comfort in the group as well, and there does seem to be a feeling of 'watching out for one's own' there.
I still won't share my personal goals or problems with them, though. Not what I did to Alamir, not what I plan to do to the others, including Jovan. That is for me. Having others do my work is what Jovan would do. Hiding behind those more powerful while using them is his way, and I won't insult myself or any of Merciless with that.
So far the Book I found has been proving to be fairly useless. No one of great interest in there, nothing that I could use to keep track of any of them. I suppose it was too much to ask, and perhaps too easy; anything easily gotten is suspect, and I must remain patient. In the meantime, I have to try to not let it consume me. I'm still alive, and there is more out there than just me or my immediate concerns.
Haven't seen Eoghann in a while. I wouldn't say I miss him, exactly, but at least with him I know someone I can trust in a strange way. He is himself. He's useful, and in combat I do actually trust him at my back. I don't miss that damned scorpid of his, and I don't understand why he likes those things so much, but maybe I should track him down sometime. He's been keeping himself absent as much as I have, and I feel slightly bad for it in regard to the guild. I'm still not sure what to make of Merciless; it's unsettling because there are elements I hadn't really wanted to interact with beyond "Hey, kill ____". Twilight dragons and talk of old gods here and there and such. Things that make my skin prickle. But there's a strange comfort in the group as well, and there does seem to be a feeling of 'watching out for one's own' there.
I still won't share my personal goals or problems with them, though. Not what I did to Alamir, not what I plan to do to the others, including Jovan. That is for me. Having others do my work is what Jovan would do. Hiding behind those more powerful while using them is his way, and I won't insult myself or any of Merciless with that.
So far the Book I found has been proving to be fairly useless. No one of great interest in there, nothing that I could use to keep track of any of them. I suppose it was too much to ask, and perhaps too easy; anything easily gotten is suspect, and I must remain patient. In the meantime, I have to try to not let it consume me. I'm still alive, and there is more out there than just me or my immediate concerns.
